Going, going...gon- oh. Nope, still here.

Well, yesterday morning I took castor oil in a last ditch effort to kick start labor.
I cleaned the house and went for a couple walks, and around 2:30 I noticed that I was getting regular contractions. I timed them and they were coming about 3 min apart and lasted 30-45 seconds. I called my doctor's office after about an hour and they said I should go to labor and delivery to get checked out.
I waited until Andrew got home, we packed up our stuff, and took off to the hospital.
I left all the bags and such inside the car, since I wasn't optimistic about our chances of staying - my contractions were regular, but not very painful, and I could easily speak and walk through them.
Sure enough, I was only dilated to 1 cm, and stayed that way after another hour of contractions.
So home we went.
After 7 hours of contractions (some of which were pretty powerful and very uncomfortable!), I went to bed and fell asleep almost immediately (Andrew said I was snoring within two minutes, lol).
This morning I woke up with nothing.

One of these days I will write a blog about my birth story...just not today, evidently.

I can't face people at this point. I can't even walk through a grocery store without someone saying "Oh, you look ready to pop!". I feel like I am disappointing my friends and family by not having this kid NOW...although I know that everyone is completely supportive of me and wouldn't want me to feel that way.
It's just that the waiting is wearing away at me!
It's hard not to get impatient with God, too...I've asked and begged Him to let our baby come for weeks now, and many times I've thought, "how hard would it be for God to let me go into labor? He could do that with the snap of his fingers. So why isn't He?"
But who am I to question God's timing? I know that He hold the universe in his hand and knows the timing of all events, large and small. He's got it handled and I have to just let go and trust Him. When it's time, it's time.
He's been so good to us, and I know He will provide.

Today I'm just going to keep on going. That's all I can do.