The month of July this year was a like a bad movie. It started off well...then got worse and worse...and I kept hoping it would get better and end soon...
And now there's only two days left and all I can think is "I want my money back!"
The flood of emotions one feels in their last weeks of pregnancy is incredible!
Let me give you something to compare it to...remember being a teenager? Remember how your mood could change drastically within minutes?
Yeah. It's like that. One minute I'm crying, the next minute, I'm laughing...I'm morose and pensive on my way to the car, and by the time I sit down, I'm noticing how wonderful the weather is and how blessed I am.
But I have to say...since my "second" due date last Saturday, things have started to calm down a bit.
Oh, I still have moments when I want to shout "WHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYY!!!????" at the sky, but mostly I'm noticing a mellowing in my mind.
Here's the truth: some babies take longer.
THIS baby is taking longer.
For whatever reason, my little girl needs more time marinating before she's ready to pop out - and thankfully, there is a good deal of evidence that babies born later rather than earlier are calmer, more likely to sleep through the night, and even might be smarter! ;)
Not that my baby could ever get smarter...she's perfect. Andrew will tell you - she doesn't even poop.
But my fears about going overdue are starting to dissipate now. There WILL be back-up for me as the pianist for my brother-in-law's wedding. I WILL have enough time to bond with my baby before school starts. I WILL be able to enjoy the rest of the summer.
And we have an adorable little house to bring our little girl home to! What a huge blessing that is. I'm very grateful.
So even though I can't say I love being overdue...I'm starting to experience the peace that comes with acceptance. It's really okay. These things happen. And I'll survive, and Andrew will survive...and everyone waiting for the news will survive...
And someday "that blog post" will be written. ;)
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